"It is a story about me, but it's really about my brother Lou. Without him, I would not have achieved anything. Never. Well, without him and his two whiteboards, but more on that later. Let's talk about failure first.

Two months ago, I was burnt with impatience. The fans returned to Old Trafford. I was completely absorbed in pre-season preparation. Ole was pleased with me. I could not wait for the start of the Premier League.

But a week before our first game, I tested positive for coronavirus. Ten days of self-isolation. Krantz.

But believe me, it wasn't even the worst thing that happened to me last summer. In June, it seemed that I deserved to be in the final application for the Euro. Of course, I respected Gareth's decision, but I burst into tears when I called my brother. Lou burst into tears too.

Two years ago, I would have been crushed by this news. But now, luckily, I am in a better situation.

When the guys were playing the opening match, I was not going to sit and whine. Yes, I didn't play, but I remained a fan. I put on a T-shirt since I'm friends with Deck, the shirt said "Rice 4" and went to the pub with Lou and friends. There was a guy with a parrot on his shoulder. Where did he come from? Suddenly a parrot sits on my shoulder, and together we watch how ours beat Croatia. What a lovely day!

I will advise all players. Go to a pub with fans at least once in your life. You will see everything from the other side. Yes, I love watching the team play, but it is incredible to play for England myself. Every time I put on the national team jersey, I am in seventh heaven.

I was thrilled to call my family in September and say that I was called up to the national team again. And then again to the matches with Andorra and Hungary, I can't even describe it. I'll say I'm glad to be back!

It would be an unforgettable experience to be part of that team at Euro, especially considering the results and how they changed and brought together. Of course, I would like to be in the final application. But you can look at it from the other side.

In November 2020, I didn't even come close to being in the squad. I didn't even think about it. Therefore, I was thrilled when I received the call in March. It was already good for me to be on the team.

We must remember how it all began. You need to understand that I was at the bottom.

The 2018 World Cup semi-final was one of the best moments of my career.

Remember that song? "Hey, England in Russia hey, drink your vodka hey, England will make it to the end!" Fantastic.

But later, when the 2018/19 season began, I suffered a groin injury. Osteomyelitis. Serious.

I've always run 12-13 kilometers per match. It's hard, but I could always force myself. This time it was different. I couldn't go on. After a few games, I just stopped. I could neither play nor train. My body was just overworked. Everything began to crumble when I was already so high.

Jesse Lingard and Jose Mourinho, Getty Images

The manager of Manchester United back then was Jose Mourinho, and he doesn't like injured players. He didn't want to hear anything.

I asked, "Boss, is it not my fault?"

I must say that we had a good relationship with Jose on the whole. He treated me well. Before this injury, he trusted me, let me out for important matches. We won tournaments; he made me a winner. He can open it up in you.

He also liked to communicate in person with the players. Sometimes I would pick up the phone and see messages from him. Just like that, for no reason. At first, it seemed strange to me.

He called and asked, "Hey Jesse, what are you doing?"

I answered: "Uh, nothing, I watch TV (awkward pause), and you?"

Ahahah!

It was funny to me. But, to be honest, this is how he showed how worried about us.

As for the injuries, then he didn't want to hear anything.

In such a situation, I could not return to the previous level. It was hard for me both psychologically and physically. There were also problems at home with my mother, who was struggling with depression. It also influenced me. It's mom.

Due to the lack of game practice, everything was even worse. And when I returned to the field, when I had already recovered, it was not me. My family came to the matches, but they couldn't even look at me. They said, "It's not you. You don't look like yourself." The rounds flew past me like I was a ghost.

Once before the match, Bruna Fernandes came up to me and said: "Today, I want to see the Jesse Lingard I know."

I was spinning in my head: "I can't, buddy, because it's not me!"

I love football—most of all in life. But there were times when I thought I couldn't take it anymore.

I spent all my free time at home just on the phone. Stuck face to screen. During a conversation with someone, I just nodded in response and did not even listen. I kept everything to myself, all the emotions and all the negativity.
Jesse Lingard. How an Englishman restarted his career with his brother

The Manchester United footballer in The Players' Tribune talked about how he managed to get out of the crisis and restart his playing career.

It is a story about me, but it's really about my brother Lou. Without him, I would not have achieved anything. Never. Well, without him and his two whiteboards, but more on that later. Let's talk about failure first.

Two months ago, I was burnt with impatience. The fans returned to Old Trafford. I was completely absorbed in pre-season preparation. Ole was pleased with me. I could not wait for the start of the Premier League.

But a week before our first game, I tested positive for coronavirus. Ten days of self-isolation. Krantz.

But believe me, it wasn't even the worst thing that happened to me last summer. In June, it seemed that I deserved to be in the final application for the Euro. Of course, I respected Gareth's decision, but when I called my brother. I burst into tears. Lou burst into tears too.

Two years ago, I would have been crushed by this news. But now, luckily, I am in a better situation.

When the guys were playing the opening match, I was not going to sit and whine. Yes, I didn't play, but I remained a fan. I put on a T-shirt - since I'm friends with Deck, the shirt said "Rice 4" - and went to the pub with Lou and friends. There was a guy with a parrot on his shoulder - where did he come from? Suddenly a parrot sits on my shoulder, and together we watch how ours beat Croatia. What a lovely day!

I will advise all players. Go to a pub with fans at least once in your life. You will see everything from the other side.

Yes, I love watching the team play, but it is incredible to play for England myself. Every time I put on the national team jersey, I am in seventh heaven.

I was thrilled to call my family in September and say that I was called up to the national team again. And then again to the matches with Andorra and Hungary ... I can't even describe it. I'll just say I'm glad to be back!

It would be an unforgettable experience to be part of that team at Euro, especially considering the results and how they changed and brought together. Of course, I would like to be in the final application. But you can look at it from the other side.

In November 2020, I didn't even come close to being in the squad. I didn't even think about it. Therefore, I was thrilled when I received the call in March. It was already good for me to be on the team.

We must remember how it all began. You need to understand that I was at the bottom.

The 2018 World Cup semi-final was one of the best moments of my career.

Remember that song? "Hey, England in Russia ... hey, drink your vodka ... hey, England will make it to the end!" Fantastic.

But later, when the 2018/19 season began, I suffered a groin injury. Osteomyelitis. Serious.

I've always run 12-13 kilometers per match. It's hard, but I could always force myself. This time it was different. I couldn't go on. After a few games, I just stopped. I could neither play nor train. My body was just overworked. Everything began to crumble when I was already so high.

Jesse Lingard and Jose Mourinho, Getty Images

The manager of Manchester United back then was Jose Mourinho, and he doesn't like injured players. He didn't want to hear anything.

I asked, "Boss, is it not my fault?"

I must say that we had a good relationship with Jose on the whole. He treated me well. Before this injury, he trusted me, let me out for important matches. We won tournaments; he made me a winner. He can open it up in you.

He also liked to communicate in person with the players. Sometimes I would pick up the phone and see messages from him. Just like that, for no reason. At first, it seemed strange to me.

He called and asked, "Hey Jesse, what are you doing?"

I answered: "Uh, nothing, I watch TV ... (awkward pause) ... and you?"

It was funny to me. But, to be honest, this is how he showed how worried about us.

As for the injuries, then he didn't want to hear anything.

In such a situation, I could not return to the previous level. It was hard for me both psychologically and physically. There were also problems at home with my mother, who was struggling with depression. It also influenced me. It's mom.

Due to the lack of game practice, everything was even worse. And when I returned to the field, when I had already recovered, it was not me. My family came to the matches, but they couldn't even look at me. They said, "It's not you. You don't look like yourself." The rounds flew past me like I was a ghost.

Once before the match, Bruna Fernandes came up to me and said: "Today, I want to see the Jesse Lingard I know."

I was spinning in my head: "I can't, buddy, because it's not me!"

I love football—most of all in life. But there were times when I thought I couldn't take it anymore.

I spent all my free time at home just on the phone. Stuck face to screen. During a conversation with someone, I just nodded in response and did not even listen. I kept everything to myself - all the emotions and all the negativity.
Not quite all, we had to add Player of the Month and Goal of the Month.

When I was first nominated for Best Player in February, we thought, "Well, uh, gotta put it on the board."

Then I had three nominations in a row - in February, March, and April. I have been nominated before but have never received an award. I was very close in March, but Kelechi Iheanacho scored a hat-trick and got ahead of me. I think he deserves it.

In April, I already forgot about it (honestly). Then I got a voicemail from the West Ham press officer; he said: "You got the 'Player of the Month'... and 'Goal of the Month' awards.

I called Lou right away. It didn't reach me until I told my family and saw their reaction. Wow, I guess this is serious.

Let's go back to the boards: Checkmark, checkmark.

After that, Bruno Fernandes, in an interview, called me the best player in the Premier League. Me!! Can you believe it? Brun said that!

Bruno loves me very much. He wrote words of encouragement throughout my lease. Getting support from a player of this level is incredible.

Then Lou said that I must have overdone it. Ahahah!

But I didn't overdo it. At West Ham, I showed how I could be a player if everything were going well. It was an improved version of the old Jesse Lingard. Jesse 2.0.

Jesse Lingard with Manchester United partners, Getty Images

When I returned to United, I felt like a different person. I have become more mature, more self-confident. Now I take on more responsibility. In truth, I have to give credit to David Moyes and the West Ham guys for this. Thanks for everything, guys!

I expected a lot from this season. It may sound ridiculous. I've been in the club all my life, but I wanted to show my best.

I don't want to be a player who can do a great game for a week or a month. I want to show how many goals and assists I can have if I play more than 30 matches in a season.

The same goes for England. I am very proud to be back on the team after everything I went through. To score two goals against Andorra, Honestly, I was overwhelmed with emotions.

But I want more—no quarantines, injuries, or interruptions. Let's see what Jesse 2.0 is ready to offer.

It seems like a new start to me. And for us, because Lou is still my trainer, motivator, and whatever. He will always be with me.

Thank you, brother, for helping me.

We wiped the boards; let's continue! We have new goals ahead."